Thursday, September 27, 2007

Mama's guilt and other ramblings

First of all--a funny thing Zoe said:

I walked into Zoe's room and there she is, sitting in her rocking chair, holding her finger in the air.

Me: "What's that?"
Zoe: "A booga."
Today, feeling baby mourning syndrome, or some such thing, thinking about how fast my baby Zoe is growing up, how she is actually no longer a baby and almost a preschooler, already 30 pounds and practically potty trained. She won't be our baby one much longer and it makes me sad. I've really enjoyed her baby-hood, though I'm looking forward to our newest one.
Feeling guilt now too, after hearing about recent families with babies who are facing serious physical challenges. Guilty for obsessing over whether this one is a boy or girl, wanting a boy so badly. I would give anything to have another little girl who's healthy than a little boy who's sick. I feel so bad for these families and can't imagine what they're going through. Keep them in your prayers--there are at least three families associated or in our church that are facing these issues.

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