Tired
I'm worn out. I can't seem to get enough sleep. Still haven't adjusted well to the time change yet, I suppose. I try for 7-8 hours a night, but some nights I'm just tensed up all night. Wake up tired and cranky. *grrrr*
Tired emotionally and spiritually too. So much going on in the lives of people I care about. I don't know how to keep up in prayer, my mind is so fuddled I don't know what to pray for half the time. Tired of struggling to keep up with "mainline" Christianity. Every aspect of my life has "worldly" elements. I'm just me. I'm not perfect and I don't want to be sometimes.
I have great respect for those who have strong convictions and hold to them, unwavering--that's awesome and I hope I can only strengthen my own self and family convictions as time goes on. Establish family values that will last, that the kids can grow up and say, "That's how I was brought up, and I'm ok." I'm working toward stability, consistency, routines that help our family grow in a walk with Christ within this world. Where to draw the line with some things, I'm not sure, but I'm testing the waters, feeling out what works and what doesn't for our family. And I think we'll be ok.
2 comments:
you'll be fine.
never aim for perfection...none are perfect. aim for holiness...to be set apart, consecration, and committed to growing in the Lord. He'll do the rest. Never rest. Never settle. Never excuse yourself from the best he wants you to be. But, love yourself where you are, too. I am so proud of you!
me
Thanks! I'm tryin, but so hard to stay focused on the Godly in this world. Hard to weed out the worldly stuff. I get a little uncomfortable in my own skin sometimes. I'm in a climb back up on the spirituality roller coaster this week as I delve into some Bible studies and get ready to start a new one. I always feel more steady, more sure when I come closer to God through his word.
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